You probably need someon to talk to that you trust very much if you have someone like that, besides bringing it up with your mother, she seems unable to deal with it and i've learned in my experience to leave some things go. She probably can't handle it when you bring it up because she hasn't dealt with it herself and has memories and problems she has to deal with hersef, and just feels guilty.I would forgive her if i were you, get on with your life and get a doc or t if possible and see if your mom would also go to them too.