thanks guys

the injection might kick in tomorrow or next day idk. it takes a few days to kick in once i get it. im so scared. ive always been afraid of meds. i wish they didnt up how often i get it. :/

my T says i cant blame everything on medication but i said its ruining my life and she said "you must mean your illness is?" and im thinking *no the medication is!!!*. the illness has ruined my life. it really hasnt.

i swear if i just had more support i bet i wouldnt need much medication and stuff like that. probably wouldnt even need therapy. i must admit my therapy isnt too helpful but i let things out in there. i just wish i had a real life friend to let things out to. sit down to coffee and let it out. u know?