I don't feel out of control and no I don't know what I want my life to be exactly but that is a good question. What I mean by this is that I often get very emotional about little problems even though if I look at the big picture I'm doing very well.

I've got a decent job, I've got a good group of friends, a good family, I'm fairly wealthy in comparison to most of the world, I live in a nice apartment, I have more life opportunities than most people do. And yet, with all that to be thankful for, I get very angry and sad about things like being anxious around people, or that I don't get enough time to spend alone, or that I have a hard time expressing myself. I mean every once in a while something major might come up like a loss of someone important but for the most part I'm pretty well off. And so it makes me feel selfish and overly emotional. It's like nothing is ever enough to make me feel satisfied. I don't even deserve the stuff I have. And mostly I just take everything for granted.