At one time I saw the description of borderline personality disorder and I saw that a few things on the list applied to my life. I had no idea about the bad status of the bpd label, if it existed at that time (late '80s?). I mentioned it to the crappy pdoc I was seeing at the time, that maybe I had that. (But I never respected that idiot). He casually responded, "You probably do." It has since then never been dealt with in any substantive form, but it's in the big psych workup I got at one point. I got a copy of it when I was leaving the region and wanted to bring my medical records. I read that thing and it had about 10 errors in it, and the BPD label at one point. But no one is ever going to see it, and it doesn't figure prominently in my life. The most important thing (apart from typical bad pdoc shenanigans - I could write a book, if only there was a way of making it entertaining/inspiring) -- the only important thing was that I addressed those elements from the diagnostic list and fought them by building alternate patterns. I'm very determined that way, not to accept whatever crap life gives me.

But label or not, I don't think I've been blessed by any god.

Magical thinking is interesting to read up on.

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I just want to add, since only now do I see what forum I am in, that I have never experienced sz or psychosis, but I've seen people experiencing such things. My sister has had some "beautiful mind" like behaviours and talks with me. She has severe problems. Unfortunately, it seems no one has been able to reach her. One experienced and eminent pdoc writes about being able to cut through schizophrenic patterns with empathy. You can read his description in "Heart of Being helpful" but probably also in "Toxic psychiatry," which I have not read. (Both by Peter Breggin.) Personally, I feel he is a great man and a figure I hope will be more recognized in future, but of course our society prefers something technologic that can be sold, rather than cultivating the difficult human skill of empathy.