I didn't see the bipolar diagnosis when they gave it to me. It wasn't until I came down and looked at the damage my manic states caused. I always though the manic me was the real me and maybe it is, and I had a lot of fun but hurt a lot of people including myself in the end. I've been depressed so long now they have changed my diagnosis from Bipolar I to Bipolar II. So I rarely have happy days. None of the drugs cocktails seem to be working for me.

Hope they get you the help you need. I also notice this is your first post so it's nice to meet you.