I relate so much. I could have written this myself. I've slept with many married men and dated one for about a year. It's so sick but it was the best relationship I've ever had. It sounds like I did the same thing as you- I would meet men online and talk to them for awhile, and then meet them either at a hotel or their house to have sex. When I was dating the man I saw for a year I would sleep with other guys in between seeing him, but he knew about it. He felt bad that he couldn't see me more often because of his wife, kid, work, and he lived far away. He told me I should get a boyfriend and have sex with him on the side.... but the problem with that was that nobody wanted to be my boyfriend.

I loved finding out about their life and wishing I was in it. I loved the attention. I loved knowing that I was doing something "bad" but that felt so right. Plus, if they were married, then they had to be good guys- because someone loved them enough to marry them. I'm telling you all of this because I am wondering if you have pinned down your reasons for choosing married men?

I think that if you do choose to stop (totally up to you), its really helpful to ask yourself HONESTLY why you are doing this and what it is you are looking for. I haven't slept with anyone married or even in any sort of relationship in about 4 years. I haven't even wanted to. Sometimes I do think about how much easier it would be then actually trying to date. Because dating for real is F-ing hard! And painful. It's so much easier to be wanted. I've never felt more wanted then the moment right before he knew I was going to have sex with him. But in reality the only reason I felt so wanted is because they were so DESPERATE. They are all fake, desperate, **** heads.

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