Bueno, I think we ARE a lot alike! That is exactly why I do it- because I don't want to deal with SINGLE guys. If they don't call you again, then you feel bad about yourself and get mad at them and wonder who else they are with.

With married guys, you KNOW you can't have them. And I DO like the risk taking and the feeling of being wanted.

I know I have low self esteem. I recently went on an actual dating site for SINGLES but did not feel ready to go and meet them. someday I will. I am also not where I want to be in life and want more for myself. I don't like who I am right now.