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Originally Posted by HockingPastryChef
My question is how do you know that he is in a better place?
If he does feel better being away and you don't like it. I see it as a sign that you need to become more independent of yourself. I see it as a life lesson; yes maybe you don't see that right now. Though when you make yourself become more confident then you'll see that everybody has their own life and in every situation there are the positives.
Like so it's a waste of time to feel down because someone else is feeling happy. I would be happy to see that he is happy and to know that you are a good person yourself and know that you'll find someone else.
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He always wanted to get away from here - so he did, he always wanted to get a really good job - so he did, he wanted to do sports - he is doing it now, we have old friends in common, I do know that he has moved on and I feel sorry for myself, for being so pathetic, 21 years old working at the bar with no degree, one silly diploma that can't help me in any way, no friends, no money, back to living with my parents in a one bed apartment.
I agree that I need to become more independent and happy with myself but I am not, I always wanted to be good for him and with him, I always wanted him to see real me and I used to think that he is the only one who does, I was never like him, I didn't know much about history or politics - he did, it is like I wasn't smart enough although I know I am not stupid, I was wiser than him in some other ways, but did it count for him? probably not. I just really need to start loving myself, be happy again and do something to fix my life like he is fixing his but what can I change? I am young and I have no experience and I feel down every single day, how in this state of mind I can ever improve myself??