Sorry, not gonna let you get away with that one! I don't believe that is all you know...
You are at a fantastic age because you have the resources from living longer, to dig a little deeper. Your age is a Good Thing

Sure it's hard. I was single 10 years, took my time, still didn't learn a damn thing in that I was too trusting. I still fell for the wrong guy. I married a liar & a cheat who won't even own it. But if I had known a little more about what I was getting, my polar opposite, that would have been helpful. Now I know.

If I could have a do-over, like you could be having right now...I would explore my personality type, meyers-briggs comes to mind. Find out more about yourself. There are many tools out there, at your fingertips.
I would start exercising to keep my mind & body fit & ready...for myself! because it would make me feel better.
I would go to Meets Ups that are doing things I want to do.
I would start taking classes in things that I want to learn.
I would remember that today is the youngest I am ever going to be, for the rest of my life.
Yes, I can and am doing some of this myself, but to me, you have a golden opportunity to take this self examination to the next level.

I know, I sound too chipper, but I truly believe this. I believe women need to stick together. We are not like men...

I wish you only the best and I am rooting for you to decide to make better choices and decide that you are lovable. When you love who you are & you are who you want to be, it will be better. I promise...