wow
you know i just told myself i don`t have to visit this forum that much but when i saw this"any1" (and without answeres yet )
just couldn`t stop myself....
i am sorry to hear you got yourself into such a situation

i haven`t been to hospital becasue of SI, and i thank God for that fact i didn`t do anyhting serious to myself, but i`ll try to help you from what i know and from common sense-those 2 rarely mussleaded me!

first-if you got into hospital becasue of SI you are in a serious condition! i guess you know that!
those who told you that your urges will be gone didn`t know what they were talking about! you will always want to SI untill you CURE the feeling and thought that is CAUSING it!
since people who could do it just by themselves are RARE
my advice to you is get yourself proffessional help, as fast as possible.

the need to SI is not going to dissapear from the minit you will start the treatment - maybe see a psychiatrist?
i hope i am not frightening you with the word "psychiatrist"
but if you have been into hospital maybe it`s better for you to check out that possibititie. but a professional phsychologist can tell you the diagnistic and tell you what is best for you, i suppose.

i hope that you will start taking care of yourself and will feel better

blessings
"ladymacabethadmunsen"