It was nice to see your tattoo and pet pics everyone! I've been lurking but I don't really know what to say. Still hiding in my bed most of the time. Everyone is apparently worried about me because I won't say what is wrong. Apparently my parents assumed it was because the voices were loud & telling me not to talk, so I told them that the voices aren't talking to me anymore (though I made out like they're gone rather than just giving me the silent treatment). I feel bad for worrying them, especially cos my Mum went into hospital yesterday with liver problems (she's never been a drinker). They're doing loads of tests but they don't know what's wrong yet. I feel like she's going to die and I don't know how I would cope, or how my Dad would cope, or how I would step up and 'mother' my little (bratty) sister... I've also got the OT appt next Tues and I'm worried about getting in trouble for not having any goals (I don't think they will work with me to overcome my fear of suicide and that's as close as I get to having a goal right now)

Everything just sucks right now and I don't know how to explain it all or what to do to make things better. Mostly I doubt things getting better is even a possibility! At least I have Maxy and he is still giving me lots of hugs, especially at night when I'm scared to go to sleep. I'm just feeling very scared and alone lately.

*Willow*