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Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23
Thank you all so much guys! Your kindness has made me cry!  I don't feel like I deserve your kind words or hugs, but I appreciate them so much. Part of the reason that I don't post much or talk to my parents about this is that I don't feel like I have a reason to feel like this. It's not that I'm incapable of leaving my bed, I just don't see the point. I don't want to exist, I don't want to go outside, I don't want to pretend things are ok anymore. But then I think that I should be ok - I have my health unlike my Mum, I have family support, I have Max, I'm young, I don't have depression or psychosis according to the hospital - I have no reason not to get out of bed and get a job and stop being a burden on my family and society. So I can only conclude that I'm lazy and pathetic and a whole load of other bad things that mean that I don't deserve to exist anymore. And that just makes me cry even more. So please don't be nice to me cos I don't deserve it
*Willow*
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I don't mean for this to sound rude but you're kind of the textbook for depression right now...I mean can't get out of bed...no interest in normal activities etc. I'm not sure how your docs can't see this...it genuinely makes no sense to me. Have you gotten in touch with your Uni pdoc and told him what's happening to you? These new doctors sound incompetent.