They're not gone, they're just not talking to me any more. I can still feel them near me, judging me, they're just giving me the silent treatment to try and mess with me, make me think that I made them up for attention, but I'm trying not to believe them.


I feel like the ECT lifted me a bit so I could go back to pretending to be ok, which requires a huge amount of energy, even though I didn't feel much better. But that can't possibly be true because ECT only works for biological depression and my low mood isn't biological...so they say...


He won't be able to write a prescription cos he's not allowed to as he's not my Dr any more. The only thing he could possibly do is write to them, and they completely dismissed his 3 page letter saying I had sza disorder before even meeting me, so what would be the point?!

I should probably try to get some sleep as it's 20 past 4 now :/ Thanks for your reply though Sometimes

*Willow*