Right from the start I've always enjoyed the sessions with Pdoc, that doesn't mean though that I wasn't nervous, or afraid, or suspicious, or just plain not wanting to go beforehand. Once I was in a session I was okay (more or less), it was just the build up before the session that got to me. I was psychologically abused by a previous male Pdoc, who manipulated treatment, broke patient confidentially and then proceeded to gradually sexualise our sessions. I got out before things went all the way, but it still had a long lasting effect on me. My current Pdoc is the first male Psych I've agreed to see in 15 years and it did take me a long time to completely and whole heartedly trust him - hence the trepidation about therapy. Now that I do trust him completely therapy has been moving ahead in leaps and bounds.