Wow. So much of what you wrote I could have written. My ex and I lived together until the end of November. I knew something was off, but she just made excuses about hard days at work and bad health (she has a heart condition), but I thought we were both very much in love (we were already planning the wedding) until she let it be known I wasn't welcome at her parents' for Thanksgiving. She ended up staying that night with her ex husband. She kicked me out of the house I had built for her the next day, and he was living there less than a week later. We still see each other because of the kids--hers, from her first marriage, but I've loved them as my own since day 1.

Like you, I still love her. Yeah, I'm angry, hurt, confused, aching, raw, insulted, and so very lonely (she even kept my dog, as I was living out of my truck at first), but I can't just forget the years we had together ever happened. All I can say is keep reminding yourself that someone who would do such a thing isn't someone you want in your life. Someone who would disrespect you that much isn't worthy of you, doesn't deserve you, and is doing you a favor by getting out of your life.

Furthermore, the guy cheated on you then tried to blame it on you by saying you didn't trust him because you suspected him of cheating on you. Come on. That's low. Forget him.forget her. If it looks like he's treating her better than he did you, then he was obviously not treating you as well as you deserve. Keep your chin up and find someone who will.