Thanks for reassuring me, I read everything but couldn't answer. I saw T anyway, and I'll say... so many things, so little time.
I brought up the sessions thing but I said little of what I wanted to say. So we talked about it briefly but she went straight to the point and said I'm definitely not going to be kicked out of her door indeed, lol. Last time I had the impression T was absolutely sure about me being "almost done", but you were right as always.

The session went on about my issues and then I was asked about the job. Time was almost up but I could say something, I said I feel like I don't have the right to complain and I have something wrong but I can't find it to fix it (I know it's not me, rationally. But these are the spontaneous thoughts). And T replied, among the other things, "what if you don't have to fix anything in that sense and it's somebody else's problem?" and why should she think I made this up. And then we'll continue next week cause I need to process it - also because I'm still there.
Even though I said one fifth of what I wanted to say and I know I will ask for reassurance again a thousand times, after the session I had that old feeling of reassurance and acknowledgement again. I'm so glad holidays are over.