ho GOD i understand you! i had-and now have LESS-those feelings of worthless, of "i could have mannaged i better"

i remember thinking of it and trign to figure out:
WHY i don`t do things ON TIME??!!
(with blame)
WHY otheres do it and i don`t?!!!
WHY and why and why i -used to blame myself, hate myself, getting overwhelmed....and also of course HATING myself.
i don`t know if you have it but lots of falks with a low self asteem have it..or ppl who just have am problem-we are ALL havign some "trouble" with our self asteem...it` somehting that comes from being raized in this society.
"...so WHY????"

BECASUE YOU BALME YOURSELF!!
what i found out reacently is that i don`t function as efficiently as i would like to do things BECASUE of all those overwhleming feelings! so they are not only something you don`t like to feel-they are actually an obstacle...
we feel exausted after we are overwhelmed don`t we?

so i think relaxation and meditation does good for people like us. becasue we are also physically tired..
we should remember, like people here said, that we are FIRTS of all human beings and ONLY THEN workers, husbadns, wives, etc. and if we want to funcion our best-we need all the power we can have-now the overwhelming and self judgment and self loathing are really bad both for the spirit and for the body.

so what i recommend except for meditation is:
remember that blame won`t change the present and you have the choice-it in OUR hand whether we let those obstacles make us fail!

hope everyhting truns out fine