I'm not getting a lot of things I need out of this relationship. Not only sexually, but emotionally. She has been there with me through the hardest times in my life, but I finally feel like afterr struggling so much for the past 8yrs or so, I am beginning to "find myself" and understand my emotions, and how to communicate and have stability in my life and relationships.

I don't think it is possible to continue this growth I am experiencing and stay in this marriage. I need to be able to live life on my terms, not have to live by her rules. I have a lot of stuff built up in me, and if I cannot get it out in a healthy constructive way then it comes out in very harmful and destructive ways. I have worked hard to get where I am in life, and I do not want to lose everything, but I don't think things through. I'm very impulsive, and when I get a thought,I just go with it. UGH!