I understand what you're saying. I've made the mistake of calling a hotline twice just to talk before I even did anything and got the cops called on me. And I agree, that there is no reason to go to the ER if you are intent on killing yourself. You only do one of the above if you have even an inkling of hope that there is something out there that can help. No one but you has the choice as to whether you live or die. Whether professionals in ER or psych wards care, they aren't much help when you leave.

I understand your anger. I hope you are lucky enough to find someone that gives a damn. It took over 30 years for me. Do I know you? No. But I hope you can find an answer to why you shouldn't do it. Good luck. I'll be thinking of you.