Do you ever feel like self harm is a competition?

I feel bad and guilty when someone does it worse than me. It's like they are challenging me to SI worse, even though that is the last thing others are doing? It also is like I want to prove that something is wrong, and am not making up my issues. I think I feel inadequate in every other part of myself, so if I can SI "better" than I will feel proud and accomplished. It doesn't make any logical sense, but it is something I have been struggling with for a long time.

Do you think there is a way to combat this when it comes to support group like setting? Just curious.

Thanks for the feedback.