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<font color=purple>I find that in the mornings my anxiety is up espeically if i'm here at my BF's place... and then once i'm up and about doing things it subsides, but I find it mostly is up espeically if I wake up and my BF is not there, obviously he is at work... so why the anxiety?
I've also had to bring up to my psychiatrit my 'meat' anxiety. For some reason I always have to check my meat, espeically chicken, the fear is eating it somewhat raw and getting sick.
I've never had this before until a while back while at a friends BBQ the burgers weren't completely cooked, we all had this problem, and my friend made a comment saying "I hope we don't all get sick from eating". Ever since then food anxiety. Little bit of an upset stomache that I get, anxiety comes up.
I cannot stop eating meat, I could never be a vegetarian, and I like meat, but I cannot stop checking it out, and getting anxious over it.
Also, at night, anxiety out of the blue. I don't feel good it's anxiety.
I finally got over my Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, life was grand, and then anxiety is all over the map.
I have to start applying for jobs in the next couple weeks, i'm afraid that my anxiety will stop me from applying.
I know I shouldn't be thinking this far ahead.... but it is a worry.
But to help me out with this my psychiatrist has me writting down steps in the order that I'm going to do to get me a job again. Startin with say..... looking online for jobs.... printing out my resume.
I now have to see this as something that I do not have to take in terms of work. I'm allowed to be picky. I just see now an interview as practice, not a job I have to take.
I've been doing alot of postive self talk lately, I have too to stop my anxiety and it almost always goes away. I mean I've mastered this but it's still a burden.
It's a pain in my rear.
Anywho- so that is what is going on with me. Been like this for awhile now, but so far it hasn't stopped me from doing anything, I hope it doesn't get to the point of crippling me like it did in the past.
I refuse to let it cripple me rather... screw that. I control the anxiety, anxiety doesn't control me.
Well.... I suppose that's it. </font color=purple>
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<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>
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