I flunked out at my first attempt, went back to a smaller school, did well and graduated. I have had a long, successful career in health care. I recall feeling like a failure, too. Looking back, I can see that the circumstances were not right for me with my first attempt.

Dwell with the feelings you are having for as long as you need them (even though they are not true). The way isn't clear for you as it wasn't for me for quite a while. Then circumstances changed and I was able to move forward. Hugs.