My problem mainly surfaces because of thoughts about a past failed relationship. Occasionally I get angry whenever bad memories surface, and I start to think, wow where did all this anger energy come from, and then I'd feel like crying. It was much worse before, when the thoughts made me suicidal. But I guess I'm tired of these thoughts. Do all this mean i am depressed and need medication and counselling? or is it just normal post break up feelings?
Also, someone mentioned about facing these feelings about the past. How DO you face them? I would think I HAVE faced them, because bringing up most of the memories just makes me feel numb (as I replayed them in the past till I'm sick of it) now, and I don't really care anymore. B
ut I guess there are still some pretty deep memories that hurt me deeply. Maybe I still need time. I don't know. It's just taking a lot more time than I expected...(been about a 14 months), but I've made tremendous progress compared to before...(at least that's what I think) Still finding it hard to talk about the past, as I've read somewhere before that one would be considered to be completely moved on if one is fine with talking about his hurtful past.
I want to completely move on.
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