"In a way, I couldn't believe that neither my dad or my step mom ever noticed that I wasn't okay, I expected them to know that something was terribly wrong, even though I did everything I could to hide it. " quote OutlawedSpirit

As you grow and learn, you will begin to understand that it is very "common" for people to just not "know" a lot of things. Einstein as brilliant as he was still did not "know" a lot of things.

It is actually very "common" for people your age and in their late teens to struggle with anxiety, but try their best to conceal it. We all learn and grow and mature "all" our lives too.

It is good to hear you are working with a therapist, but you must understand that a therapist will only "know" what you need as you open up and talk about the things that are challenging you. A therapist is not there to judge you either, you are not there to "please or impress" them either. While you may feel that your challenges are unique, believe me, therapists have listened to much, much worse and a good therapist will listen, help you to feel safe and should be that person that has the ability to actually "listen" to you and help you finally "work through" whatever you are struggling with that you have not figured out how to work through on your own yet.

(((Caring Hugs)))
OE