I don't talk. There isn't a specific place for mutism so I thought I would just put it here.
I'm 15 and have been mute because of mental health issues for a year.
I don't think I will ever really talk again, but since yesterday, I have become terrified.

My friend from the psych hospital I am in ran away yesterday. I was the only person who knew. Luckily, she was caught on her way out by the food delivery man, but if he hadn't been there to stop her, my inability to talk would have meant that staff didn't get to her in time (she was going to the train tracks).

Since then, all I have been able to think about is what if there is an accident and I cant call a ambulance or a police when I need to. And even if there isn't an accident, there are so many restrictions.

I want to be a midwife. I cant do that if I cant speak.

I like skiing, I like hiking, I like rock climbing, but how can I do any of those things safely if I cant shout for help if something goes wrong.

I don't think I could talk even if I tried. Its like there is a physical restriction stopping my voice from working. I can make baby noises and such, but that's all.

Does anyone have any advice for how I can either start talking, or be more independent whilst not talking? I'm really scared abou tmy future and the safety of the people I am with all the time.

This needs to get sorted. I need my life back.