It is hard for someone to really understand bi-polar unless they are experiencing it themselves. I have BP and there are a lot of people in my life that I just don't talk to about it. My best friend and sister-in-law is one of those people. I told her about my suicidal ideation and she freaked out. She thinks it is wrong. I tried to explain to her that it's just one of the things that happens sometimes with BP. I now try to only talk to someone who understands or also has BP. Right now I am looking for a support group with others like me who just need to know they are not alone! I hope you find someone you can talk to!