So, I have a tendency to get depressed for no reason, it came yesterday, and I feel better today. I’m not sad all the time, I’m really happy, well, somewhat. but when I get into those random depressions, I forget about everything except for what I’m feeling right then.

The happier I am, the more they show up. It’s almost like coming down from a high, but it’s so extreme, and so instant. It literally came in an instant yesterday;It’s not just me being sad, because there’s rarely ever a reason, and it gets really, really bad. Like, crying for literally hours and self hatred and suicidal thoughts(like seriously contemplating suicide) and then I can be happy.

Yea, it is just weird. I mean... usually I am depressed, but this seems to be happening more often