There is a place online where you can actually ask shrinks and other specialists questions. The first time someone saw my cuts was a psych nurse and she just said 'Hmm, hashmarks'. Made me curious what she meant. So now, I've asked two shrinks on this one place what the differences were and what they meant. They said the knew of no significance. SI was SI. So it kind of baffled me that when she claimed , without seeing the marks herself, that they looked like a tic-tac-toe. She said she didn't know of the significance, but she felt I was playing games. She is my case manager but she is only a licensed MFT Intern. And she is also the one that threatened me with the hospital if she thought I was going to cut. Thank God I have a rational T on the outside who knows better.

This is the kind of stuff that makes me angry that I feel I have no choice but to go to this program!