Hello Rhapsody,

I've asked myself this question, and asked others for answers, and I've searched for answers, and prayed, and meditated, and exercised, and wrote, and read, and been an addict, and come up with ways to kill myself, and screamed, and tore up paper, and burnt candles, and cried, and cried some more. I want peace. And I'm still working on it. And I'm not giving up for one reason -- it wouldn't be fair to give myself up forever to those monsters who stole me and used me like meat. And so I pray for the heart to conquer my pain.

One day, I'll be a giant and I will crush them.

mtd