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Originally Posted by speedbird
Or stupid?
I used to be an ace at school. I always got like 90s, high 80s, and whatnot. During the first semester of grade 11, I got high 90s.
Then something happened. I think I just became lazy. I used to be OCD about school; I always feared that if I didn't do well, someone will die in the future because of mistakes made by me. Nowadays, I think "I don't want to be as unhappy as I was during that time". So I don't really look forward to school anymore. I don't put too much work into it.
I do have some good things to say about myself. I'm very well-spoken and articulate in writing. I am very polite, and soft-spoken. I am considerate to others, and despite my anger with the world, do things to help other people. People think that I'm good, socially.
Am I really "dumb"? That's kind of what my friends think of me.
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No, you're not dumb. Like you said, you're just a little lazy... and unfocused. I did the same during my sophomore year (most crucial year of high school) and people know that I'm fairly smart... considering that I'm acing all of my classes at college.
Really? Your friends think you're dumb? Doesn't really seem like they're friendly if you ask me... :/ Nor supportive.
Keep your head up.
I can relate to "I don't want to be unhappy as I was", and all I can say is that it leads to more anxiety, trust me. All you can do is live your life and try not to worry about the future.
Have you tried seeing a therapist? Maybe they can help.