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Originally Posted by beloiseau
In nursing school, I was told during my psychiatric rotation (for example), that you must ask patients about thoughts of suicide to assess their risk, and by doing so, you are not implanting the idea into their minds. You are not 'giving them any ideas'. I kind of think of self-harm in the same way sometimes. I had never really thought about it, until I read of BPD and related to the diagnosis so much. I, like you, thought about SI as an option after finding out about it because if it helps other people, maybe it can help me. I think it would have probably happened eventually though, although I have no way of knowing that, and am thus constantly concerned that I put the idea in my head by relating to the BPD diagnosis.
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I think I understand where you are coming from. I agree, no one ever put the idea of suicide in my head. But MH professionals, whether intentionally or not, gave me the 'screw you' attitude that made me overdose or cut. I can't say they put the thought in my head, but I can say, their actions made me romwhat at that time, I felt,were my only real alternatives.
I think I got the idea of cutting when I was about 15? And my sister was hospitalized for taking too much aspirin in a suicide attempt. There were slight hesitation scratches on her wrists and for some reason, that, I think, gave me the impulse. Don't know if I'm right or if it makes sense. But I've always assumed that was the reason.