I feel like I'm dying a slow death.
Lacking the basic human connections needed to make each day worth waking up to.
My own fault.
Isolating myself from people. Cutting off friends... throwing them away.
I'm killing myself by stripping away everyone that once meant something to me. Giving up on my life and the potential for happiness.... even if only ever the fleeting kind.
My loneliness tears me up inside and makes it that much easier to hate myself and to continue pushing people away.
I can't see it any other way. I am convinced I dont deserve love or friendship. That I am unworthy of these things. It hurts. I hurt myself this way. I dont know how to change or to stop.
Isolation kills.