Thank-you for the kind words and the understanding Innerzone.

I am currently on medication, but it isn't enough. I want so badly to go to therapy or some kind of support group... because I know they will help me tremendously. However I cannot afford a therapist. I can barely put in 20 hrs a week at work, which just pays the bills.

I have come here as a last option... hoping to find support and understanding and from people who have similar struggles. I dont know anyone who suffers from a mood disorder... depression is one thing, but the rapid mood swings really make it hard to make and keep relationships for me.

Anyways... I am a mess of a person and I dont even know where to begin on how to fix this. Fix me. I dont know how to make it all better. I really feel like i've lost myself somewhere and I'm completely alone. I dont know what the point of being here is if I have to do it all alone