Thank-you for your kind words and understanding Innerzone.

I am currently medicated... taking Zoloft, Divalproex and Seroquel since April when I was diagnosed with Bipolar II. Before that I was on Effexor with a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder. When I asked the Psychiatrist what the difference was and which one I was and why... he would not give me a clear answer. I feel like I fit the criteria for both, with many traits overlapping. The Effexor I believe put me into more of a manic state, with deep depression too. While now I feel more leveled out, but with more depression than any kind of highs. Each day is different though and I constantly feel like my world is upside down.. like I am a passenger on a train, along for the ride... with little to no control.

I want so badly to be in therapy and/or a support group... because I know it will help me. I cannot afford therapy though, I am barely able to work 20 hrs in a week which just pays the bills. There are no support groups in my area either, so I have come here as a last resort. Hoping to reach out to others with similar problems, those who struggle with Bipolar and BPD too. I currently do not know anyone with this disorder and I feel so utterly alone.

I have the hardest time with relationships... be it friends or lovers. This is where I feel the most pain and the reason for my deep loneliness. I often wonder what the point of this all is if I have to do it on my own