I know I am spamming here and I am sorry for that . I know I am not in a good place today .I am very reactive. i am so wanting to do things differently today .I know when I am this reactive I lash out at things .I aam trying not to do this as no one on this sight has done anything to me to deserve any of my crap so I just want to spread so love and say hugs to everyone and sorry to be such a pain again and )( to stopdog