Feeling really sad this morning. I think it has to do with being with my family yesterday. It may sound corny, but when I'm in their midst and feel their love it's very comforting during this time of depression. I didn't want my brother to leave - - I just wanted to be able to go home with him and his family and have them take care of me. I know that may sound immature, but having the comfort of my family right now makes me feel stronger.

I did pull my brother's wife aside and tell her I was still in the depression that started early August, and I started crying. It just felt good to share that and say that out loud.

Now it's back to my boring, lonely M-F daytime life without a job. I just hate it. I have to hold on until a job comes through, and I think things will improve a lot.