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Originally Posted by smmath
Do you ever feel like self harm is a competition?
I feel bad and guilty when someone does it worse than me. It's like they are challenging me to SI worse, even though that is the last thing others are doing? It also is like I want to prove that something is wrong, and am not making up my issues. I think I feel inadequate in every other part of myself, so if I can SI "better" than I will feel proud and accomplished. It doesn't make any logical sense, but it is something I have been struggling with for a long time.
Do you think there is a way to combat this when it comes to support group like setting? Just curious.
Thanks for the feedback.
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I can relate to your posting. Years ago, when I was in and out of the hospital... I had the "I'm so much better than you" attitude when it came to seeing other si'rs. I also had trouble in dbt back then. Comparing my si to other's even if they weren't cutter's like I was. I wanted to be the "baddest" or the "best" at it.... which of course landed me in the hospital more.
Your right, it doesn't "seem" logical. But it sure feels like it.
As for ways to combat this is a group setting, the best I can tell you, from my own experience is to
focus on yourself....
