I wouldn't know if this is similar but I have a friend who is dissociative. He unfortunately doesn't see dissociation as a problem because he doesn't remember going in and out of dissociation like you did. He plain denies it happened. He has only done it a very few times and I have known him forever, but if he feels threatened it can happen.

What comes out is not like a named alter but it is still someone I can't say I know. This other is more alert and sharp than my friend and also he is a trouble maker big time. When he comes out all he does is lies. This created issues for my friend because he didn't know he did this and didn't want to hear about it. When this other has created trouble he tried to sweep it under the rug even if it once cost him his home.

I'm glad you have another attitude, no matter what this is that is happening to you.

Dissociation isn't anything school book, this thing we call DID is just a small part of how dissociation can appear. Mostly it isn't clear cut DID. For most with dissociation it's very different from the stereotypical idea of named alters which are fully distinct from each other.

Some people think this is just a less complete form of DID, but I think it is a thing in itself. But that is just my own personal take on it.