Autumn Skies - thanks for the advice. I was hoping for a neurological issue but the neurologist counted that out. I will look into the assessment though.

If this is DID it's really hard to get a handle on the reality of it. The memory issues make it hard to remember how I felt at certain times. Also, if I feel one way it's really hard to visualize feeling any other way. For instance, if one day I have one set of morals, I can never imagine having a different opinion. Then the next day I may have a totally different set of beliefs. So I just think well maybe yesterday I was confused. It's very disorientating.

Actually life in general is extremely disorienting.

I always thought that people with DID have very distinct personalities like Sybil. I'm not like that. I don't one day wake up with a different accent or language. I'm starting to learn that maybe that isn't so accurate. However, I don't mean to discredit anyone else's experiences.

I think my T and I need to have a serious conversation about functioning because whatever this is, it's becoming unbearable and the more I become aware of it, the worse it gets.