And did it hurt?

So, in session tonight my therapist suggested I come for three 2 hour sessions between now and Saturday. I think basically because I don't get feelings in the office, I have lots of thoughts, but I only really get feelings afterwards at random times, so she thinks it'd be a good idea to push a little more. I think it's to see if I can manage to 'let her in'. I'm not entirely sure what this means I'm certainly letting her in way more than virtually anyone else on the planet right now. I think this probably has to do with vulnerability * shudder *

I am extremely, extremely grateful to be given the opportunity. I think I'm also keen to do it and meet the challenge (because I think it will be exhausting) because it feels very pro-active. Being an inquisitive sort of person I'm also curious to see how the process evolves in that time.

Can't deny, though - I am afraid. Not blind panic or anything, but afraid nonetheless. I'm scared in case its a disaster and I can't thaw out more or whatever and then I'm scared in case I actually DO thaw and get smacked over the head with a tsunami of pain that will be witnessed by somebody else and therefore more real, and my abject misery will be seen. *****.

What is intensive therapy like? Long or short term? Is it difficult?