I've done therapy in the past where I was going twice a week for a total of anywhere from 2 1/2 - 6 hours per week. It was helpful for me during those times, because I had so much going on in real life, plus was experiencing a lot of flashbacks and new memories related to past abuse. I actually did this type of work with three different therapists at various times. I trusted each of them, and they were also available if needed for brief phone calls between sessions. It did help me to get to the feelings, because it seemed that so much of the first hour was me getting comfortable, and talking about the current stressors, that I really needed the extra time to open up.

It was difficult, but it would have been more difficult at the time without it. I tried to be gentle with myself during those times especially, because therapy in itself can be physically and emotionally exhausting. Think of it as deep soul surgery, which requires intensive care support.

You might find that having a compassionate witness (therapist) to support you will make it less overwhelming than you expect. I don't remember the exact saying, but it's something about having 2 to share an experience can double our joy, and halve our pain.

Plus, it takes an awful lot of energy to hold back a tsunami; it might be a relief to let some of it out. I can relate to how you feel; I used to be afraid that if I ever started to let things out, it would overwhelm me and never stop. But it didn't work that way, and I can say now that it's been worth the journey.

Whatever you decide, I wish you well.