I'm new to this site and I'm glad I found it. My father was going back to liquor and I was going to confront my mom. I couldn't come to grips with how I was going to approach her. before I got the chance I received a call she had been arrested. violence is not apart of our family. I found myself going into depression and went to out doctor for advice. My symtoms were that of major depression and he put me on meds. 1 1/2 yrs later and countless events my father committed suicide. I have not been myself since. I have been placed on a new med ever six months and have recenlty gone into major depression and getting scared. I haven't been dealing real well the last two months and have found my self crying uncontrollably and have that pain of his loss greater that ever before. I have been looking for support groups but none are close. I can't go with my mom because I ended up being there for here and my true feelings wouldn't come out. I just miss him too much