It's not just on dating sites though…even on here (and other places), the main complaints in relationships is either abuse or the other person in the relationship is selfish because they aren't having enough sex with the other person. And I'm not trying to say the guy is always the one in the wrong in these situations, but it does seem to be a high statistical possibility that if I ever were to date a guy that I'm going to be abused and/or guilted into sex. I mean, it really isn't fair to the guy if I can't physically keep up with other females my age. I mean, I have to already make up for the fact that I'm a late-bloomer sexually, weird (and not always in the good way, bitter/angry.

I mean, any actual nice guy is going to be terrified of me and for good reason. I mean, I've seen/experienced enough abuse that I'm sick of it. And while I'm a nice, non-judgmental person, if I feel like a guy is even toeing the line of being offensive/disrespectful etc. etc., s*** is going to get real. Very quickly. I've been trained to see men as the enemy until they prove otherwise. And I'm not going to change that attitude because I don't want to be seen as a possible victim ever again.

I really wish that I was straight-up lesbian because then I wouldn't automatically hate one of the genders I'm attracted to.