I also have been recently diagnosed with bipolar. It now makes sense to me my behavior. I can look back as far as puberty and see it. So does my family. I feel so ashamed & defective. I am on meds ( lamectial, abilify & welbutrin. I felt great at first, but now I am down in the dumps ie depression. .... how are you all able to manage the highs & lows of this illness. I gave GOT to get a grip on this thing they call bpd & bpd.