So I feel like a part of me was just ripped out from inside me. I met this girl on okcupid and we were really connecting, messaging each other back and forth every day. She gave me her number and we had made plans to meet one day. I had spent this whole month thinking about her every moment, waiting to hear from her, and enjoying just thinking about maybe being with her one day. Then give her my name after all this time and ask for hers. Turns out her name is the same as my mom's name. And that's that. I can't do it. It would just be too weird. I can't think of wanting to do "things" with someone and have it be the same name as my mom's. I just can't. Maybe I'm weird for this but I'm just seeing it being a problem at some point. And now I find myself completely depressed and frustrated just wondering how I am supposed to just instantly TURN OFF my feelings for this girl. I'm really struggling to smile right now.

I was so excited about this working out. This RARELY happens on okcupid, especially for guys, when you actually meet a girl on the site who actually puts the time into messaging you and shows interest. (If it is just as hard for women please correct me on this) I wish I could just "find someone else" on the site, but it's just not that easy. Just about every cute girl I see on the site doesn't even reply. I am getting exhausted of the same "hey how's it going! I see you like ____ I like that too! I appreciate how involved with ____ you are! Maybe we could talk about _____ sometime!" It gets SOOO tiring. Especially how we all know we messaged them because we thought they looked cute in their pictures, yet seeing their profile says to specifically NOT comment on their looks. How does this make sense? You post pictures of yourselves trying to look pretty then we are not allowed to comment on that? I give up. I truly sincerely give up right now.