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Originally Posted by Angel of Bedlam
So I had something pretty devastating happen to me this weekend (read about it in the BPD forum), and I ended up going into a BPD rage. I didn't have a lighter to burn with or a blade to cut with so I ended up just punching myself as hard as I could in the same place over and over. Has anyone else resorted to this as a measure for SI?
I also am upset with the results. There are only tiny bruises thus far (boyfriend says it takes a while for them to set in), and I'm angry that I have nothing to look at. My cuts are manifestations of my physical pain and now there's nothing.
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Yes I have Angel. I use to burn myself like you,usually my hands and wrists,sometimes my neck and chest. Then I started "head bashing". Started with my fists,that wasn't enough so I started using drum sticks and a baseball bat. If I don't have any of those things with me I just bash my head into the wall or the counter top,anything hard. Afterwards the headaches last for several days. I have also shocked myself.
I sincerely hope that situation you wrote about in the bpd forum gets better and you find yourself having many happy days with him.
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