Well I thought it was going great, I started playing video games again (which I have stopped doing since I'm so depressed). But today my sister let me know she is very disappointed, ashamed, and embarrassed of me. This is over the guy I'm casually seeing, sure I want a committed relationship but he doesn't want one. And now I feel lower dirt, she said everyone knows I'm his "flavor of the week." I started self-harming myself with a knife, it really burned and left red indentations but didn't actually cut through the skin. I guess this is why cutters use razor blades. I'm seeing my psych tomorrow, hopefully she can convince to me live because I just don't want to anymore.