((((safe hug)))) I am so sorry that things weren't handled very well or clearly for you. You must have known about the ciggie though, or you wouldn't have been in the bathroom smoking it???

Ok. It's done. NOW what are the steps you can take to do this better? Will your T hold your extra meds for you? Can you feel safe with you keeping track? What caused you to take all those pills in the first place? Are the same feelings still with you? How can we here at PC help you?