I must ask my T about any symptoms other than the high dramatic episodes and monastic retreats over and over and over. Like I try to live in the world, but would have liked to, in another age, lived in a monastery and study. Seriously, though, I think the BPD is the tip of the iceberg for adjustment anxiety. I understand my personality, I just basically can't stand people I meet here, but that's another story....."stuck inside of nowhere, seeing no one nice at all.....". I am getting stronger to visit my family in CA again soon. I feel that for the BPD sufferer, there is always a struggle going on and I think it is about authenticity and/or unexpressed artistic ability like writer's block.