I have days I feel normal and think I'm the same as every other "normal" person yet I have days I feel I must be anti-social and/or crazy. Do other people get that? Like I can cry for things and stuff though I must admit I mostly have to be drunk and playing music for that. There are some situations/ a few people I have cried about too but then again I was drunk around the one person I'm specifically thinking of. Also I felt something weird and unexplainable with that person I haven't felt before. It was strange as I did things for them I never would have even thought of for others. Like go out of my way to get them a drink for example, mostly I found in life I had to learn to do that for guests- like I see whenever I go to other peopls houses how they act- they offer a drink- coffee seems to be the most popular drink offered and I always forget to do things like that or just don't even consider it. I had to push myself to begin to do things like that that seem to come natural for others. Even then I still mostly don't think of it. I can be very generous though, if I order a pizza or something I'll share it as an after thought, though have learnt a bit on that too that it is generally accepted to ask them what they want but it's all such a pain really. Doesn't make me mad it's just kind of annoying to try remember this sht just to seem "normal." I been doing things like that for years though to stop people picking on me, to hide, to blend I guess idk. But the older I got the more of a bother it all seems, why the hell can't I street drink for example? It's not like I'm cutting off people's heads, it's bs, why the hell should some pig have the right to STEAL and EXTORT money from me for something so lame? Why should I have to offer drinks? Can't someone ask if they want something? That leads me to another point- mofo's who go in my fridge- a select few are allowed to do this yet some *BLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP* think they can do this and it makes me very mad but I hide that madness then it comes out later in other forms. Ok so I'm probably off the original topic now but to be honest I really don't give a sht this right here is my soap box I guess so don't whine if it annoys you cos so what? This my post get u own :P *gaurd post with sharp tooth pick* This sht will take out ur eye! lol idk I'm in weird *** mood seriously ha ha ha ha so anyway back to the point, whatever the hell I said up there^^ anyone else get that? Or no? Just me? You too? I'm tired of being the only one in this dark room, it's boring and annoying :/ *metaphor not literal* SPEAK TO ME PEOPLE